when you rang me at four in the morning and told me you still loved me. when you told me i was everything you loathed in the world without looking at me. when you smiled at me across the room. when you let me smoke in your bed. when i dyed you hair and it came out wrong. when i tripped you up running drunk. when we cried like kittens on his bed. when i touched your scars. when i let you read my diary. when we shared a bed and held hands during the earthquake. when you held me down and told me this is what i wanted. when you clawed my face and i bit you so hard you bled. when you took me by the throat. when i fell in love with every stranger i met.